- the reason being that I fucked up 3 years ago when I decided to change my blogs around. This blog used to be all about the multimedia/art stuff that I would make, and I had this other blog where I would just collect stuff that I liked as most people do on tumblr. 

For some reason, I changed which one I posted what on, and that was the stupidest idea ever. I jeopordised so many years/history of collecting cool stuff and ranting. (This is probably only important to me, but it’s still one of the crucial parts of this story, because I love this blog.) I have so many memories with it, and I’m sad to leave it. 

I’m going back to using the blog that I originally used for collecting stuff, so I’m not really starting from scratch, but so many years have passed and that chunk of history is forever presserved here. 

I’m sacrifising (bit dramatic #firstworldproblems) this blog because of two reasons:

1. I have decided to dedicate my blogging activites to focus on sharing and promoting my art. The reason I changed in the begginning was because of this weird self-denial period of my life where I was like “creativity is stupid, I’m not going to be creative - bye”. To be honest I was a bit depressed and it was a strange, dark time for me, but I’m better than ever now. 1.1. Also, the marketing pros of your main blog being your work showcase is that people are more likely to see your work when you interact with them (likes, following etc.). When this blog was my ‘work’ blog, I had quite a bit of success with my stuff with some of my photos having several hunderd notes.
2. This is all an issue because of the impossibility of moving or switching blogs in an account/ and or exporting to other accounts etc. in tumblr. Don’t get me wrong, I love tumblr as a a blogging platform, I wouldn’t go anywhere else! - but this really needs to be made possible to save a people in the same predicament a lot of trouble. 
   

I feel like this is a real first-world thing that I’m going through, but still, even though it might be in the top part of Maslow’s Hierachy of Needs, it’s still part of a need, and my need for self-actualisation in this lifetime. I’m not going to deny what that ‘little voice’ says anymore - I’ve been down that road and it doesn’t end well I tell ya.

All the time that I had put my self-expression under the carpet and made it second priorty, I had these uncofortable feelings, and I felt emotionally sick/ sick in my soul. Now that I have been working on clearing the junk/detoxing I want to create again! For a while I didn’t know how to, didn’t know what I wanted to make and now I want to do everything on every kind of medium - I just want to do it again.

I also want to share my stuff effectively so that I can start to make a living out of it too, and ideally move away from working a 9-5 job for someone else, and working/contributing to the world in a more natural way to me.

Wish me luck, and if you’d like to follow me on my ‘voyage of discovery’, you can follow my progress on initialsbz.tumblr.com and if you like my taste, you can follow the kindof continuation of this blog at the same url: bsdream.tumblr.com

I’ll admit that now I’ve been off Instagram, I want to go back to it. There’s a few photos that I really want to share that just don’t fit anywhere else.